HOW CAN I?
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Sadly, this is not an isolated case. There are untold numbers of children across Africa and across the world who are suffering just as deeply. That's why I can't quit talking about the importance of ministering to these "least of these". That's why they haunt my thoughts in the day and my dreams at night. That's why I blog about Swaziland and missions so much.
But that's not enough.
How can I continue to eat so much that I'm overweight?
How can I continue to spend money on stuff I really don't need?
How can I hold on to so much stuff I can't even fit it all in my closets and drawers?
How can live a life that's so wrapped up in me and mine?
How can I not be willing to sacficially live and give so that these helpless little children can have just the basics of life?
I can't keep living like this, thinking like this, consuming like this, buying like this.
I've got to change. I've got to be willing to die to self. But I can't do it on my own strength. My selfish flesh yearns for more food, and new clothes, and cute accessories, and, and, and! But my heart wants to have the heart of Jesus....Jesus who was willing to leave all the riches and glory of Heaven to come and live a humble life here on earth, a life of service, and then die on the cross. For me. For me. How can I give Him less than my all?
God, change my heart. Make me willing and able. Show me areas I can do without. Show me things I can sell to give my money to the poor. Show me ways I can love YOU as I serve them.