Musings from Graceland

I'M TRYING NOT TO BANG MY HEAD...

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....against the computer desk. For about 4 hours this evening I've been working on a calendar online for a Christmas gift. The first attempt had me nearly completed when the website froze up and I had to start all over again. Now its nearly midnight andMonday I've finished it but when I clicked on one of the buttons to finalize the thing, it started "loading" and its been loading for about 20 minutes now.

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I can't scream if I lose it again...I'd wake Jim. I can't bang my head...I'd get a ginormous headache and probably break the keyboard or monitor or something. So I sit and wait and pray and hope, hope, HOPE that I end this lengthy endeavor with one completed calendar. Is that too much to ask?

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Sigh......

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FRIGHTFULLY FRUSTRATING MONDAY MORNING UPDATE:

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W-A-A-A-AAAAAAH!!!!!!!!!!!!! The calendar never would finish "loading". I left it going and got in bed freezing with a good book just hoping and praying that it would do its thing. Every now and again I'd pop out of the semi-warm bed to check on it and it was always the same..."please wait while loading". I finally fell asleep at some point and then Jim woke up about 1:30 and said that if it hadn't loaded by then it wasn't going to load and I'd just have to start all over! UGH!!!! Like a busy mom of 7 kids wants to do that?!? Of course he's right and I will have to just start all over but it doesn't mean I like it one single iota.

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And today its GOT to be done. A great special is being run PLUS Christmas will be here soon so I've got to get it FINISHED! But it ain't happening this a.m.

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I must get Christmas packages mailed to our loved ones out west or they're going to think I've gone Grinch on them this year.

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I love Christmas...I love the packages and the presents and the cards and the parties and all those wonderful things. I just hate that I'm such a procrastinator and so disorganized that I let things that would normally bring me joy instead bring me angst.

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This just AIN'T what Jesus birth was supposed to be about. I need His peace and I need it bad!

So today I will strive to be a better steward of my time. Not spend too much of that limited resource online (except to do the calendar....AGAIN!). Really focus on loving my kids and speaking sweetly and praising God for all I've got. And just keep getting those thoughts centered back on WHY I'm doing these things...and why the effort is so worth it.

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And I think turning on some Christmas carols just might help....Accuradio, here I come!

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